A Father's Love...

I really wanted to share this because it is so important to me. Regardless of your faith or belief I hope you can relate to this. It seems a lot of writing but the time will fly by!

I woke up this morning feeling the need to connect with my heavenly father. You may not understand but I miss him...I miss the connection we share, that continuously fades away.

So I got my bible, daily readings from your best life today, UCB word for today and I sat on my bed...

Nothing...

You see when I’m in his presence I feel something words cannot describe, I am desperate for that feeling, I was DESPERATE.

So I read Deuteronomy 6:6-7, I was happy because I was spending time with the Lord but it didn’t seem to be enough, it was simply not enough.

When I tried to pray I felt like an amateur, my words were fumbling and I was frustrated.

So I asked the Lord to renew my spirit, my strength, my fire and my passion for him because I felt empty.

At the back of my mind was a reminder that I was expecting THE EMAIL. 

This was more important- I am tired of living a mediocre unfulfilled life where nothing counts?

Are you living or just existing, continuing, ‘going with the flow’.

Do you even remember what it feels like to feel ALIVE?

When I read 2 Chronicles 32:6-8 I felt so encouraged! It was exactly what I needed to hear “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged...there is a greater power with us...the Lord our God to help us and fight our battles.”

One of my favourite songs began to play and suddenly I felt empowered. Yes! I was dancing around like a crazy person, singing at the top of my voice BUT...It felt AMAZING!

Earlier in the week my mum had given me a bible passage to reflect upon Ephesians 3:12 “In him and through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence”. I felt confident in his love for me and the promises he made over my life.

I was able to pray from the bottom of my heart and the depths of my soul...I keep thinking what would someone think/feel reading this?

I hope you open your hearts...

Joel Osteen said ‘keep an attitude of faith. Stay calm. Stay at peace. Stay in a positive frame of mind. And don’t try to do it all your own way. Let God do it His way.

I've been trying to do it my own way for sooooooo long, but somehow it never goes according to plan. I was fast beginning to feel everything was falling apart. Trying to do everything and yet not doing anything at all. I wanted to throw in the towel honestly!

But the bible says “Don’t get weary and faint in your mind”-Hebrews 12:3

What I read in the bible and how the Lord directs me to exactly what I need to hear at that given time is not a coincidence. He renews my faith each time!

I have no doubts as to why I worship the God I worship. I am far from perfect, yet his love for me is unconditional and never ending. He is always there to pick me up when I fall...my shelter. In him I find peace, calm and restoration. I belong. My hiding place...

My mother sent me a message at a time when she knew I was struggling...

“Keep your eyes on Me! Waves of adversity are washing over you, and you feel tempted to give up. As your circumstances consume more and more of your attention, you are losing sight of Me. Yet I am with you always, holding you by your right hand. I am fully aware of your situation, and I will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able to bear.

For those of us that need encouragement I really hope this helps. As for me I will keep pressing on, there is so much to discover.

There is always hope!